Where the willow don’t bend
There’s not much more to be saidIt’s the top of the end
I’m going
I’m going
I’m gone (Dylan)
On the pages and the text
And I don’t really care
What happens next
I’m just going
I’m going
I’m gone
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Where the willow don’t bend
There’s not much more to be saidway down, down, down by the docks of the city
blind and dirty, he asked me for a dime
a dime for a cup of coffee.....
i got no dime but i have some time
to hear a story (Hunter-Garcia)
so i remember the cup with maroon triangles more than anything else.....i see it consistently....i dream about it....it's always there......i will try to find a picture on the internet.......it's significance to me is not just because i was fiddling with the lid to add sweet & Low when i was knocked out of my chair and onto my desk when the first plane struck my building.....it was the last thing i saw before all hell broke loose......i had a recurring dream ( and still do) that i am in the building and i am the only one that knows the planes are coming....and that cup is always there......and all of a sudden in my dream i realize that i have to run for the stairs......usually wake up in a cold sweat......but that cup....yep......it never should have been there, but it may have saved my life.
In the summer/autumn of 2001 I was working for Instinet Clearing Services ( a subdivision of Reuters...we were one of the first and only at the time ECN ; electronic crossing networks) we were on the 13th Floor of the North Tower...TOWER 1....first hit, last to fall. I was part of their venture into a Retail Brokerage offering and a Clearing Corp......we were still in our early stages and Reuters was prepping for an IPO to take us public ( an offering that i would have close to 100,000 share of options ...i was going to retire before my 50th birthday) i digress.....in the summer of 2001, since we did not have much work, the Margin Dept did a lot of sitting around, we took extended lunches in Little Italy or the Village, Drank in O'Haras and played on the computer......but we had a regular breakfast in the Port Authority Cafeteria on the 43rd floor of Tower 1 ( we had to take 2 elevators to get there) we would sit there and admire the incredible views while we read the post and drank coffee.....It was me, Johnny Fraulo, Pooch and Anthony.........but the day prior it just so happened that Fraulo was on Vacation in Vegas.....Pooch was on Jury Duty in Staten Island and Anthony was always late on the Express Bus from Brooklyn.......so as i rode the ferry over from Hoboken i decided to grab a coffee from a street vendor on Vesey street between wtc 6 and wtc 7.......ironically i then walked up the survivor staircase to the plaza and into Tower 1....and so a few minutes later i was at my desk ( and NOT in the elevator going to the cafeteria) i have often wondered what would have happened if any of the other 3 were in the office......the howling screams i heard coming from the elevators just a few minutes later (while i was on the Emergency Phones by the Stairs) could have been my own screams....the burnt, smoldering corpses that littered the lobby just 10 minutes later , the still smoking bodies we had to step around to get to the Vista Hotel could have been me and my buddies....
I remember Sept 13th ....i was the only person in my car on the NJ Transit train....I had to walk from Hoboken to our disaster site at 101 Pavonia Ave in Jersey City...it was a ghost town....we setup shop in a room that housed our computer servers...it was freezing in there, it had to be.....and the Old AC unit made a loud BANG every time it kicked on.....which was every few minutes......i remember some of the women were in tears from being scared by the loud noises....i remember some of them were sent home....i remember we had one long window in the room that faced lower Manhattan......we spent a month there.....there weren't any good bars there along the water in 2001......but we had a deli......and everyday the four of us would grab 3 or 4 pints in brown bags and sit on a park bench and stare across the Hudson at the smoldering pile that used to be our office (years later Dorrians would open across the street) we watched the smoke change from Black....to grey......to a sickening yellow haze......for weeks it continued to rise....slowly killing everyone and everything in it's path.....and we sat helpless across the river just watching...wondering ...waiting.
I share some of this today because i fear that many in the country have....if not forgotten...have chose to move on......i fear that attention paid to the anniversary will only wane and diminish from year 26 and forward...i wanted to get this out and on paper before it slipped from my memory too....although i doubt that will happen ....my luck, even i have Alzheimer's someday; this will be the only shit that sticks with me.....the Cup with the maroon triangles....i wish i could find one, i would post a picture.
anyway...stay safe......i'm going off the grid until saturday.....i have a beach chair and a cooler full of beer with my name written all over it
I got up and wandered
Wandered downtown
nowhere to go
just to hang around
that time loves a hero
But only time will telland so just a few days before the 25th anniversary comes news that 9/11 related cancers saw an dramatic uptick this past year , but who knows if that is even true....doctors, lawyers and other liars are all in this game for the money....they have managed to put a price tag on everything from cancer to heart burn....does it diminish from the people that truly lost their lives on that day or years later from the smoke ? that's for everyone to decide on their own........i just think its disgusting to live in a time where everything has to taken with a grain of salt...so many lies, distractions and censorship.......I fully understand how older folks become so jaded and distrusting of anyone and everything.
This week Gov Pataki said the he has a 9/11 related "restricted airway disease" .....ok..........he was Gov from 1995-2006......did he stand up for the people of his State and insist that the air quality was a problem in the days, weeks, months afterwards.....OR...did he hide behind Kristy Todd Whittman........Whittman of course apologized for claiming the air was Fine.....in 2016......what took so long ?
Yesterday mandanni released files that he said were found in lock boxes in city hall.....smoking gun memo's showing the Guliani Administration knew all along that the asbestos in the air was a problem and that they hid the truth and were more concerned about the cities lawsuit liability.
I am grateful that i am still here 25 years later.....i don't know if it helped....but while i spent an Hour in a thick cloud of smoke outside Castle Clinton and the Holocaust Memorial ( so thick i couldn't even see Mondo standing next to me, could hear his voice, couldn't see his face) i used a water bottle that someone was giving out , to wet the sleeve of my work shirt and then i tried to breathe through the shirt....using the wet shirt as a filter to block some of the dust from getting to my lungs....maybe it helped....i still feel in the back of my mind that i will walk into a doctor someday and be given a 6 month death sentence.....nothing i can do about that, i try not to think about that too much....but every year this month of September gets worse and worse.
anyway, this time next week i will be in good old Bayridge......Blisstock on the 19th and the Hoban run on the 20th.....hopefully i see a lot of friendly faces on the Hill at Owls Head....
Some say my uncle that he's a zero
His life as a shell, he left it back at Stateside
I'd say he's doing well without his shell
Bumming 'round the beaches of Puerto Rico
The beauty of the sunrise and sunset
To his friends he wish he could tell
They're at home still running for bells
Better San Juan than that blue collar hell
What´s happening at the Stock Exchange
I want to knowAnd the clowns have all gone to bed
You can hear happinessI think Hakeem is stalking me........no, not Hakeem Olajuwon......he's Hakeem the Dream.....i'm talking about the New York Nightmare....Hakeem Craig Jeffries...
Thursday i gave a brief overview on Data Centers and how i thought they could be reigned in and managed so that both sides benefitted....and yesterday Hakeem took the bait. ( Truth be told/ in fairness he was responding to POTUS......Trumpski said cities that reject Data centers flat out, are backwards and doomed to be left behind this economic windfall)
But Hakeem of course had to paint data centers as the new satan.....and insisted the Repubs were trying to unleash this horrible monster on the American public....it's kind of sad, but the big blue North gets what they deserve when they continue to elect morons.....they vote on party lines only , and in primaries they choose the candidates with the best sound bites or whomever their union tells them to support.......data centers do not have to / nor should they be a partisan issue......both sides should be actively pursuing their construction in their districts, with safeguards and on good financial terms for their constituents.
So, what we can expect to see is that more data centers will be built in Red States in the South......already low property taxes will shrink or go away entirely....quality of life investments like parks and recreation will flourish and technology field jobs will be created.........and up north ? more of the same red tape... just like how they will squander the FB payout on more bureaucracy and govt overreach programs.......it is a shame, because i truly do love NY/NJ and do not wish to see these states abandoned.
Lots of Talk about these FLOCK cameras.....i don't see why it is such a problem to fix......i share concerns with many over the loss of privacy...and i despise Big Brother Govt spying....but in this day and age with so many abductions of children and ex spouses, a few minutes could be the difference between life and death....I think it can be an fixed.....limit access to the data....only provide unlimited access in the areas surrounding a disappearance /abduction, and for a brief window....and only grant access after the fact ( for evidence gathering) if accompanied by a warrant........do not allow Cops to search for their ex wife's whereabouts on his lunch hour.......and no blind searches for a specific plate without a warrant.
I am following this Clancy case in Mass.......lady killed her 3 toddlers and then either tried to kill herself or create a smokescreen to distract everyone......the murder of the kids is NOT in doubt....from what i understand they are trying to determine her mental state at the time of the killing....I do not think a jury of average Joe's should be responsible for that.....this sb a trial before a judge and let both side provide their experts testimony....and let the judge decide.
must be bitter resentment for fans of the Notorious B.I.G (Chris Wallace) aka Biggy Smalls......he was murdered in 1997 as payback for the part he played in the murder of Tupac Shakur....this was during the infamous Rap wars between East Coast and West Coast Rappers........Martians, this is not a joke.....well now it turns out that Tupac was killed by the Uncle of some LA rapper that he beat up earlier in the evening.....and Biggy had nuthin to do wit it......shame.
anybody seen Mikie ? an 8 month old infant was killed and his Mother & Sister hospitalized , when they were run over by a vehicle in a supermarket parking lot in Jackson ( i believe) New Jersey.......spoiler alert...not only was the driver unlicensed, but she was illegal....maybe, just maybe...if the State of NJ cooperated with ICE ( instead of protesting outside of Delaney Hall) this 20 year old miscreant would have been identified and detained BEFORE she murdered an infant.....maybe the family of the deceased should file a $100 million lawsuit against the State for Failing to enforce /assist Federal Immigration policies .
a few sports prognostications........NFL win totals
Falcons over 7 1/2
Browns over 5 1/2
Broncos under 9 1/2
Jaguars under 8 1/2
and NVDA is lingering between 215 and 220.....this is a $300 stock.....if you have patience and a few sheckles....load up......i'd say it hits $300 next May around earnings time...
and 2+3=BEEER
Will the wind ever remember
The names it has blown in the past?
And with this crutch
Its old age and its wisdom
It whispers, "No, this will be the last"
I know everyone has too many t-shirts already, and most of us are trying to downsize our wardrobe, but i created these shirts as a nod to a fantastic Bayridge event....BLISSTOCK.....and to raise a few sheckles for a worthy Bayridge Institution....The Guild for Exceptional Children.........spoiler alert....we are keeping the window to purchase a shirt open until After Blisstock.....we think quite a few people may be inspired that day to buy a shirt....so the physical shirts will not be delivered until early October......you may also just make a donation if you really do not want a shirt...
Laughing water, 49