every nerve in my body

 is so vacant and numb

I can’t even remember what it was I came here to get away from (Dylan)

a million heartbreaking stories in the big city every day, we can't possibly talk about them all...but sometimes a story just reaches down into your body and rips your heart right out.....case in point Henriberto Quintana ......he was on the platform in Jackson Heights on Monday afternoon  when he bumped into an apparent heartless, soulless, vacant scumbag named carlos garcia......garcia dropped his phone onto the train tracks.....and insisted that Quintana retrieve it.....the 48 year old father of 3 said NO...and a fight ensued......garcia threw the victim onto the tracks as the train approached and Quintana was struck and killed.

in addition to 3 kids, Quintana leaves behind a widow who was waiting patiently for her husband to return from work to take her to her dialysis appointment....she is sick and unable to work....her husband switched jobs so that he could make it home by 5:00 to take her to her weekly appointments...otherwise he would never have been on that platform....his new job required him to leave his house at 4:30 every morning....13 hour days of construction to support a sick wife and 3 children.....a hard working, contributing member of society snuffed out by a career criminal and scumbag.

if there was a God that ruled this planet sometime long ago....i think he too grew disgusted and took a shuttle to a new galaxy....we are a hopeless, aimless collection of matter...speeding our way to oblivion.

have a whiskey, play the stereo, retreat.

Don’t even hear a murmur of a prayer
It’s not dark yet, but it’s getting there